the life I want to live

It happens that lately I saw 3 different movies , yet all of those movies were chasing my old dream of escaping my present life and run far far away, hide from all the responsibilities I have, the working hours am stuck into, and find a cave where I can write ….the movies are Motherhood, Eat Pray Love, A previous engagement.
In motherhood, I somehow saw myself in the movie, yet I thank God my life is less tragic. I touched how desperate she was to be a writer if only she could escape from her own baby and be able to write without any disturbance….. oh! that’s me. bashoor my friend always encourage and push me to fulfill my dream, yet like the hereon in the movie, I can't WRITE cuz I can't get all the focus I need, nor be able to write without any interrupting noise or crying babies around me….
But in eat pray love, the drama was even more complicated, the hereon indeed escaped her live and marriage only to fulfill her dream as a writer, and to catch up with all the life she missed while being married…. I can't deny that I sometimes envy single people for still being able to choose their future path rather than living a present they can't change, and wonder whether they might had a better future….
Finally, in a previous engagement, she was really brave, she finished up raising up her daughters, and went back to the man she loved before even getting married, the man she promised to meet in Malta in 25 years … and then left her husband and daughters only to live the life she was longing to have before 25 years, and it was never too late for her.
It was strange, that all the three characters wanted to be writers but their marriage was the obstacle in their way…. And all of them escaped their lives to be able to correct their mistake and chase their dream back. Yet I think am kinda similar to Uma Thurman inn motherhood… I really wish to life another life, I really have too any different goals to achieve, yet I cherish my husband and babies…and I don’t want to substitute them for the world….she found the solution by being jobless and by submitting her smallest boy to a nursery, and then be able to write in such a calm writing atmosphere.
I think the solution for me as well is to manage my life to fulfill my dreams, and not to escape the life we have to run after things we might never get, and which might never get us the soul fulfillment we are seeking like Julia Roberts in Eat Pray Love…..